CHOOSING PEACE :WHEN YOU NEED TO DISTANCE YOURSELF FROM A TOXIC PARENT

“You can love your parent and still choose peace.”

BY DERICK BENGO Contents Introduction: The Pain We Rarely Talk About Chapter 1: When Home Becomes a Source of Pain Chapter 2: The Trap of Trying to Be Enough Chapter 3: Respect, Boundaries, and Self-Respect Chapter 4: Choosing Distance Without Choosing Hatred Chapter 5: Living With Guilt and Family Pressure Chapter 6: Protecting Your Marriage, Children, and Home Chapter 7: When the Apology Never Comes Chapter 8: Choosing Peace, Not Revenge Chapter 9: Building a Life Beyond the Pain Conclusion: You Are Allowed to Choose Peace Reflection Guide: Questions to Ask Yourself A Simple Boundary Plan A Note to the Reader Introduction: The Pain We Rarely Talk About From childhood, many of us are taught to respect our parents, honour their sacrifices, and remain loyal to family. We are told that parents are the people who should protect us, guide us, and love us. Yet life can be complicated. Sometimes, the relationship that should offer safety becomes a source of fear, guilt, criticism, and emotional exhaustion. This book is for the person who has tried to keep the peace by staying quiet, giving more, forgiving repeatedly, and explaining their feelings over and over. It is for the son or daughter who loves a parent but feels drained after every call or visit. It is for anyone who has wondered whether choosing distance makes them ungrateful or bad. The purpose of this book is not to encourage hatred, revenge, or careless decisions. It is to help you think clearly about patterns of behaviour, understand your right to boundaries, and make choices that protect your well-being. Not every difficult relationship is the same, and not every parent who makes a mistake is toxic. What matters is the pattern, its impact, and whether there is genuine accountability and change. You may not be able to change your parent. You can, however, learn to recognise what is happening, decide what you will accept, and build a healthier life. You can love someone and still protect yourself. You can hope for reconciliation without waiting forever for it. Above all, you can begin healing even if the other person never admits they hurt you. Chapter 1: When Home Becomes a Source of Pain The deepest wounds do not always come from strangers. Sometimes they come from the people whose approval matters most to us. A parent's words can stay in a child's mind long after childhood has ended. Repeated criticism, humiliation, manipulation, or rejection can affect confidence and make a person question their own judgement. A painful family relationship may follow a familiar pattern. You try to help, but the expectations keep growing. You say no, and you are called selfish. You speak honestly, and you are accused of disrespect. You stay quiet to avoid conflict, but the silence is treated as permission for the behaviour to continue. Over time, you may begin to anticipate conflict before it happens. You rehearse conversations in your head, feel anxious when the phone rings, or leave visits feeling ashamed and exhausted. These reactions are worth paying attention to. They do not automatically prove that a parent is toxic, but they can be signs that a relationship needs careful boundaries and support. Try to look at repeated behaviour rather than one bad day. Does the parent take responsibility when they hurt you? Can you disagree without being threatened or humiliated? Are your boundaries respected? Is there room for your feelings, or does every conversation become about their needs? These questions can help you see the relationship more clearly. You do not need to label a person in order to acknowledge that a particular behaviour is harming you. You can say, “This pattern is not healthy for me,” and decide what needs to change. Chapter 2: The Trap of Trying to Be Enough One of the most exhausting experiences is trying endlessly to earn approval from someone who keeps moving the goalposts. You work harder, give more, keep quiet, and make sacrifices, hoping that this time your parent will recognise your effort. When appreciation never comes, you may conclude that you are failing. But your worth cannot be measured by one person's approval. You can be responsible and loving without meeting every demand. You can be grateful for the sacrifices your parent made without agreeing to every decision they make today. Gratitude is not a lifetime contract to surrender your independence. Notice when you are acting from fear rather than choice. Are you agreeing because you genuinely want to help, or because you are afraid of being insulted? Are you giving money you cannot afford to give because you fear being called ungrateful? Are you changing important plans simply to prevent another argument? These questions are not meant to shame you. They are meant to return your choices to you. Start with one honest sentence: “I can care about my parent without proving my worth through constant sacrifice.” Repeat it when guilt or pressure makes you forget your limits. You may never receive the recognition you hoped for. That is painful, and it deserves to be grieved. But you can stop making your whole life an audition for someone's approval. Chapter 3: Respect, Boundaries, and Self-Respect Respect matters in families, but respect does not mean accepting mistreatment. A boundary is not a punishment or an attempt to control another person. It is a clear statement of what you will do to protect your time, privacy, resources, and emotional safety. A boundary might sound like: “I want to talk with you, but I will end the call if you insult me.” It might mean not discussing your marriage, finances, or parenting choices with someone who uses that information against you. It might mean limiting visits, keeping conversations brief, or choosing text messages when phone calls regularly become hostile. The most useful boundaries are specific and realistic. Instead of saying, “You must stop being difficult,” say, “If the conversation turns to insults, I will leave and we can try another time.” You cannot force another person to behave differently. You can decide what you will do if the behaviour continues. Expect that a new boundary may be challenged, especially if others are used to you always giving in. You do not need to argue endlessly or provide a long defence. Calmly repeat the limit and follow through. Consistency matters more than dramatic speeches. If you live with the parent, rely on them financially, or fear retaliation, plan carefully before setting a boundary that could put your housing, safety, or essential needs at risk. Seek support and make a practical plan first. If you are in immediate danger, prioritise getting to safety and contacting trusted local help. Self-respect is not cruelty. It is recognising that your needs matter, too. Chapter 4: Choosing Distance Without Choosing Hatred Distance can take different forms. Some people maintain contact with clear limits. Others reduce the frequency of calls and visits. Some need a temporary break to regain perspective, while others decide that no contact is necessary because the relationship remains harmful despite repeated attempts to establish boundaries. There is no single answer that fits every family. The right choice depends on the behaviour involved, your safety, your circumstances, and whether the parent is willing to respect limits and take responsibility. You do not have to choose permanent estrangement to prove that your pain is real. If you decide to reduce contact, keep your plan simple. Decide how often you are willing to communicate, which topics are off limits, and what you will do if a conversation becomes hurtful. You might say, “I need some space. I will reach out when I am ready to talk.” You are not required to debate your decision with every relative. Distance should not be used as a game or a threat designed to make someone suffer. Its purpose is to create room for safety, clarity, and healing. If a relationship improves, you can decide whether to rebuild it. Rebuilding trust takes more than promises; it requires sustained changes in behaviour. Remember that you can care about someone from a distance. You can wish them well without giving them unrestricted access to your life. Chapter 5: Living With Guilt and Family Pressure Guilt often arrives when you begin changing a long-established family pattern. If you have always been the one who apologises, gives in, or keeps everyone calm, setting a limit may feel wrong even when it is reasonable. Relatives may pressure you to reconcile quickly or remind you of everything your parent has done for you. Their perspective may be incomplete. They may not have witnessed what happens privately, or they may be trying to avoid conflict themselves. You can listen respectfully without allowing other people to make your decisions for you. Ask yourself: Have I acted to harm someone, or have I set a limit because a repeated pattern is hurting me? Am I taking responsibility for my own behaviour while also expecting responsibility from others? Am I being asked to restore peace at the cost of pretending nothing happened? These questions can help distinguish useful accountability from guilt that keeps you stuck. You can acknowledge the good your parent has done and still be honest about the harm. Both realities can exist. You do not need to deny their sacrifices in order to describe your pain. When guilt rises, pause before responding to a demand. Talk with a trusted person, write down what happened, and give yourself time to decide. You are allowed to make decisions when you are calm rather than under pressure. Feeling guilty is not automatic proof that you have done something wrong. Sometimes it is simply the discomfort of learning to live differently. Chapter 6: Protecting Your Marriage, Children, and Home As adults, many of us build homes of our own. We may marry, raise children, manage finances, and make decisions that require independence. A parent's repeated interference can place strain on these responsibilities, especially when private disagreements are carried into the wider family. Boundaries can help protect your household. You and your partner can agree on what information is private, how visits will be arranged, and how you will respond if a relative undermines either of you. Try to discuss these matters calmly with your partner rather than allowing outside pressure to turn you against each other. Children benefit from stable, respectful environments. If a family member repeatedly insults, threatens, manipulates, or frightens people in the household, it is reasonable to limit the children's exposure to that behaviour. Explain family boundaries in an age-appropriate way without asking children to take sides or carry adult conflicts. Protecting your household does not have to mean rejecting your entire family. It means making thoughtful decisions about what is safe, respectful, and sustainable. You can care for a parent while declining demands that jeopardise your finances, relationship, or children's well-being. Your responsibility to respect your parent does not cancel your responsibility to care for the family and life you are building. Chapter 7: When the Apology Never Comes Many people hold on because they hope that one day their parent will understand. They imagine a conversation in which the parent acknowledges the pain, apologises sincerely, and begins treating them differently. That hope is human. Wanting to be understood by a parent is not weakness. But some people never acknowledge the harm they cause. They may deny events, blame others, or promise change without following through. If your healing depends entirely on their willingness to admit they were wrong, you may remain trapped in waiting. You can begin healing without pretending the past was acceptable. Healing may involve talking with a counsellor, confiding in a trustworthy friend, writing down your experiences, learning to recognise triggers, or developing routines that help you feel grounded. If the relationship has left you deeply distressed, professional support can help you process the experience and decide what comes next. Forgiveness means different things to different people. For some, it is a personal decision to release the wish for revenge. For others, it is a gradual process. Forgiveness does not require reconciliation, and it does not require you to put yourself back in harm's way. Trust must be rebuilt through behaviour over time. You can leave room for change without putting your life on hold. You do not need an apology to begin building a future with more peace. Chapter 8: Choosing Peace, Not Revenge When someone has hurt you repeatedly, it is natural to feel anger. Anger can tell you that a boundary has been crossed. But if your life becomes organised around proving a point or waiting for the other person to regret their actions, the conflict may continue to occupy your mind even when you are physically distant. Choosing peace means shifting your attention from controlling the parent to caring for your own life. It means learning what helps you feel safe, rebuilding friendships, pursuing goals, resting without guilt, and allowing yourself moments of joy. It means refusing to let one painful relationship define your entire identity. Peace is not pretending that nothing happened. It is not excusing harmful behaviour or forcing yourself to reconcile. It is the steady work of making decisions that reflect your values rather than reacting to every provocation. You may have difficult days. You may miss the parent you wish you had. You may feel relief one day and sadness the next. Healing is rarely a straight line. When those feelings arise, remind yourself why you needed change, reach out to supportive people, and give yourself time. If reconciliation becomes possible, look for accountability, respect, and consistent change. If distance remains necessary, you can maintain it without hatred. Your goal is not to win a battle. Your goal is to build a life in which you can breathe, grow, and feel safe. Chapter 9: Building a Life Beyond the Pain When a relationship has demanded much of your emotional energy, you may need time to rediscover who you are outside it. Begin with small, dependable steps. Reconnect with people who treat you with respect. Return to activities you enjoy. Set goals that belong to you. Create routines around sleep, movement, meaningful work, faith or reflection if those matter to you, and time with people who make you feel safe. Practise noticing your own needs before automatically responding to everyone else's. You are allowed to rest. You are allowed to say, “I cannot help with that right now.” You are allowed to make a decision without seeking permission from people who do not bear the consequences of it. Try writing two lists: what you can control and what you cannot control. You cannot control whether your parent understands, apologises, or approves. You can control how you communicate, what information you share, which boundaries you maintain, and whom you ask for support. If you find yourself overwhelmed, consider speaking with a qualified counsellor or mental health professional. Choose someone who respects your circumstances and helps you explore options without pressuring you into a particular family decision. Support is not a sign of weakness; it is one way of caring for yourself. The future does not have to be a repetition of the past. You can learn new ways of relating, choose healthier connections, and create a home where disagreements can happen without humiliation or fear. Conclusion: You Are Allowed to Choose Peace Not every child who creates distance from a parent is ungrateful. Not every son or daughter who says no is disrespectful. Sometimes a person is simply tired of explaining, defending themselves, feeling guilty, and trying to earn love by abandoning their own needs. You are allowed to have boundaries. You are allowed to protect your peace. You are allowed to build a life where love does not constantly come with fear, manipulation, or emotional exhaustion. You cannot choose the family you were born into, but you can make thoughtful choices about the environment you create around yourself and your children. You can choose to act with dignity without accepting mistreatment. You can hope for reconciliation without sacrificing your safety. You can grieve what you did not receive and still move towards a future that holds meaning. Do not let bitterness consume you, and do not use the pain of yesterday to decide the person you will become tomorrow. Heal at your own pace. Learn to treat yourself with the kindness you have tried to give others. Seek support when you need it. Let your boundaries be guided by wisdom, not revenge. You can love your parent and still choose distance. You can forgive and still maintain boundaries. You can appreciate their sacrifices without accepting mistreatment. Being a good son or daughter should never require you to abandon yourself. Choose peace—not because the pain did not matter, but because your life matters, too. Reflection Guide: Questions to Ask Yourself Which repeated behaviours in this relationship leave me feeling hurt, anxious, guilty, or exhausted? What have I tried already, and how did the parent respond when I expressed my needs? What boundaries would help protect my emotional, financial, or physical well-being? Which parts of my life do I want to keep private? Who can support me without pressuring me or dismissing my experience? What practical steps would I need to take if I chose less contact? What would accountability and meaningful change look like to me? What is one small step I can take this week towards a healthier, more peaceful life? A Simple Boundary Plan 1. Name the behaviour: Describe the specific action that is harmful, rather than relying only on labels. 2. Choose the limit: Decide what you will and will not participate in. 3. Prepare your words: Keep your message calm, brief, and clear. 4. Choose your action: Decide what you will do if the behaviour continues. 5. Get support: Tell a trusted person about your plan, especially if you fear retaliation. 6. Review and adjust: Notice what works and change the plan if your safety or circumstances require it. A Note to the Reader This book offers general reflection and self-help guidance, not a diagnosis of any parent or a substitute for professional advice. Family relationships differ, and decisions about contact can be complicated. Consider your safety, housing, finances, culture, and support system when making changes. If you are in immediate danger, seek urgent local assistance. You deserve support as you work out what is healthiest for you.

Senator Irungu Kang'ata Denied Clearance by IEBC

Murang'a Senator Irungu Kang'ata has been denied clearance by the IEBC to vie for Murang'a governor seat.

This is after the electoral body established that his running mate Winnie Mwangi failed to resign within the legal timelines.

The Elections Act requires state officers seeking elective seats to resign six months to an election.

In the context of the August 9 General Election, state officers were required to resign by February 9, 2022. 

Mwangi had been working as a lecturer at the University of Nairobi for over 25 years before she was picked to be Kang'ata's running mate.

COMMON MISTAKES YOUNG ENTREPRENEURS MAKE IN A NEW BUSINESS

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Starting a business at a young age is exciting, but also extremely challenging. Entrepreneurs are more popular than ever, and as a result, many young and eager professionals skip the corporate world and dive headfirst into entrepreneurship — many doing so before they are ready. This flood of young entrepreneurs can lead to a lot of poor decision making. Their lack of experience, mixed with blind eagerness and know it all attitude, is a recipe for inefficiency and costly mistakes. While making a few mistakes along the way is inevitable, but there are still a dozen mistakes that young entrepreneurs keep making that can be avoided.

Below are the mistakes young entrepreneurs seem make when starting a new business:

1. Being too impatient.

Stories of “overnight success” make wannabe entrepreneurs think that their new venture will be a success immediately. What these young start-up creators don’t see are the years of hard work that go behind a big launch — which is usually successful only due to years of smart planning. Just because these steps aren’t publicized doesn’t mean they are not happening behind the scenes.

Young entrepreneurs need to acknowledge that their project is a long-term investment. Being too impatient will ultimately lead to failure, as many young entrepreneurs have learned. In fact, according to research, 70% of startups scale up before they are truly ready and don’t make it in the long term. The reality is that there are no shortcuts to accelerate past years of persistence, and young entrepreneurs need to learn to play the long game if they are to be successful.

2. Trying to do everything by yourself.

Many young founders might think that because they are the vision behind their company, they must do everything themselves. What many fail to realize is that starting a company is not a single-player effort. It requires a team of those you trust and that believe in the vision of the company to help you grow. Working with a team also means learning how to be an effective leader, which is an underdeveloped skill in many naive entrepreneurs. They simply lack the years of experience or confidence to successfully lead a team. They also tend to be micromanagers, who are used to projects being done a certain way. This can ruin a team’s chemistry and collaboration. Founders need a balance between paying attention to the big ideas while being able to lead teams of others to carry out the smaller, everyday tasks.

3. Not understanding your business plan.

While a formal business plan is not completely essential, a successful startup does need to spend time thinking of the nuts and bolts of their business model. There should be a road map in place that outlines key metrics and projections for all involved to see. Young entrepreneurs skipping this step might see more complications down the road. Taking advantage of a self-service knowledge base or free knowledge base software can be a good start to documenting company plans that you can share internally with those invested in your business goals.

4. Not understanding your market.

Understanding your market means more than doing market research; it means learning from those who have been working and selling in that industry for years. Frankly, young entrepreneurs don’t have the work experience and knowledge that seasoned sellers might. Actually knowing the nuances of your market takes time. Younger entrepreneurs can benefit from having a mentor or by spending years working for another company first before launching their product into a market dominated by pros. make sure your market will be receptive to you, even if your company remains a small player.

5. Hiring the wrong people.

Hiring is a unique talent that many young founders might not be ready for. It requires being able to read a variety of people and personalities and understanding which of those work well together in the workplace. More seasoned owners know that sometimes it’s more about chemistry than skills, and while an employee looks good on paper, he or she might clash terribly and stall growth. Additionally, a younger entrepreneur might be more prone to bring on a school friend or close buddy to start up a new project. While the familiarity and support system is a nice feature, it is a bad business strategy. When business relationships begin to get personal, criticism can be misconstrued and there can be a nasty falling out. Avoid this taboo by hiring professionals who are qualified and eager to grow your business and that share your same vision.

6. Thinking you have no direct competitors.

The excitement about a new product or business can often lead new entrepreneurs to think they really have no direct competition, or that their product is so head-and-shoulders above those of their rivals that they’re in a category of their own. In reality, it’s extremely rare to have no direct competitors. Unless you’ve invented a completely new product, there will be someone who already has market share in your niche. Do your due diligence to find out what these companies are and how you can differentiate your business.

7. Imagining that you know everything

Mentoring ensures that knowledge, experience, and hard-won insight transfers from one person to another through personal interaction over time. While your own great ideas are essential to your new business, with an experienced mentor at your side, you will have one of the most powerful assets any new businessperson can ever have: someone invested in you and your success. As an entrepreneur contrary to popular belief, we do not always have the answers to every possible challenge that is thrown our way in our day jobs. That is why we have mentors to help us and guide us through some of our challenging days at work. Mentors can help guide you through situations such as problems with our customers, products/ services,  potential expansion opportunities that are presented to you, they can help you improve upon your soft-skills (communication, networking, decision making), offer up ideas around strategy .

A mentor is someone who will keep you grounded in your journey /pathway and provide direction that you may not be getting from your ecosystem. In an effort to improve upon certain skills in our lives, a mentor acts as a career coach and our career champion towards our success. A mentor essentially fills those gaps that are missing from your career and professional development growth.

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Harmonize Amsifia Diamond Platinumz.

By:Peace Benshazy

Picha:Harmonize na Diamond.

      Harmonize aliposti ujumbe wa kumsifia Ex-Boss wake Diamond kwa kumtoa mbali na kufanya awe alipo sasa hivi.

"Pekee uliona dhahabu kwenye mchanga na giza jingi sanaa.. Leo Hii Africa mzima special East Africa wanajivunia uwepo wangu 🤞♥️This is love is forever my brother. Everything I have done its just to make you proud don't get me wrong kaa chini peke yako bila mtu yeyote pembeni soma ninachomaanisha. You are the legend one. Stay cool#KONDEBOY and all KONDEGANG team we love you. Happy new year big brother",Harmonize ambaye sasa hivi anamiliki lebo ya KONDE GANG alipost ujumbe huo kwenye page yake.

      Siku kadhaa zilizopita Harmonize alimkashifu Diamond kwa kukataa kumsaidia babake mzazi. Hii ni baada ya picha ya babake diamond akiabiri matatu,huku kabeba gunia kusambaa mitandaoni. Diamond na babake hawajakuwa kwenye uhusiano mzuri wa baba na mwana kwa sababu hakumpa malezi akiwa mchanga.

     Katika wimbo wake mpya 'WAPO',Harmonize anasuggest kuwa wazazi wote wanapaswa kupewa heshima. "mama na baba ndio nguzo la maisha,wapende wote,sio wa kike anacheka na wa kiume analia kila saa,"Harmonize anaonekana kutoa wasia huu kwa Diamond.

     Licha ya haya yote,Harmonize bado anamheshimu Diamond na kusema kuwa Diamond ni King. Swali ni je,ujumbe huo wa Harmonize na wimbo wake wa WAPO utachukuliwa vipi na Diamond?

Omtata Challenges Letter Appointing Mwilu Acting Chief Justice

By:Peace Benshazy

    The human rights activist Okiya Omtatah challenged the outgoing chief justice David Maraga's letter of appoitment giving authority to his deputy Philomena Mwilu to take over as he retires.

      Omtata who filed a case last week seeking to stop Mwilu from acting as Cj now says Maraga has no powers to appoint his deputy.

        The activist wants the court to suspend the appointment of Mwilu. The Cj is expected to return to office by  11th of January after his leave. Maraga will hand over power to Mwilu to act as Cj for a period not exceedding 6 months as per the constitution. However,Omtata had dismissed the letter claiming that Maraga has no powers to appoint his deputy as the acting Cj.

      "The letter is unconstittutional for creating the position of an acting Cj,a position not contempleted by the constitution,"cited Omtata. According to the court documents,there is no privision in the constitution for the DCJ or any other person to act as Chief Justice.

      omtata also argues that there cannot be an acting CJ because the constitution only recognises the Chief Justice.

DCJ.Phillemona Mwilu and the CJ.David Maraga

How To Start a Music Production Studio

Peace Benshazy

Have a desire to start your own music production company? You should know that producing music requires long hours of hard work, and starting your own music production company requires extreme dedication and meticulous planning.

These 8 simple but important steps can help you in starting your own production company.

1. Learn about your business and build your skills 
You do not need formal education in music or business for this business, but you need to develop the relevant skills. Try to learn more about this business by reading articles and referring music insider websites.

​Getting a degree in music production, sound engineering or recording or seeking an internship at a professional recording studio can help you advance your learning. 

2. Get the right equipment 
You should be able to make music from your own home. If you lack funds for creating a professional quality studio, you will have to arrange basic equipment like computer or laptop with audio software. But for recording with live instruments, additional recording equipment is required. 

3. Choose an appropriate space for your home studio 
You do not need an office space for getting started. You can begin music production from your own home. For this, you just need a space in your home which is free from distractions. Basement can be a good option as it helps dampen sound and can be easily soundproofed. 

4. Choose a unique name for your company 
You need to choose a unique name for your music production company and then file a DBA (doing business as) form for it. You may also need to file additional paperwork and tax forms depending on the state you reside in. 

5. Get published marketing materials 
Marketing your new production skills is important for your success. You should market yourself both locally and online. You can get published personalized business cards, pamphlets, flyers, posters and other marketing materials for marketing yourself. 

6. Create a website
For the online marketing of your music, you need to have your own website. You can avail one of the less costly website building options for it. Affordable hosting plans offering a free domain name are also available. WordPress enables you to build your own personalized website without any experience in website designing.

7. Start producing your own music 
Begin with producing your own music. After creating your own tracks, you can upload them on SoundCloud or YouTube as samples of work for local and regional recording artists. 

8. Build contacts with local artists
Work towards having an active presence on the local music scene. Try to build contacts with the local artists having similar tastes and style. To work together with them, you need to negotiate terms with them and sign a production contract with them.

MusicLinkUp can help you network with various music industry professionals around the globe who can help you in starting your own production company, growing it and in making it a success.

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